回家

今天我要回家去，从原生的家回到香港的家。我喜欢管自己住的地方叫着[家]或是[屋企]，而不是公寓、宿舍、房子等等，这样子我才能够保有生活下去的勇气。每每和人谈天说到我什么时候该回家了，朋友说笑都会问：到底哪个家呀！？开心的时候，天下为家；不开心的时候，最好回到自己一个人的家；不论开心不开心，父母家永远是自己的家，讨厌或喜欢都要回去。

这次以出公差顺道回父母家，看望年迈的父母和兄姐，发现自己再次面对近年的恩恩怨怨时，越来越那么的不可忍受。是工作压力把我的包容力度降低了吗？还是我本来就是一个不堪一击的小气鬼? 我竟然讨厌家里。因为这不好的觉悟，我反而花更多时间呆在家里，试图寻回我爱我家的感觉。

和久违的朋友通电话，也没时间出来见面，因为身体很疲劳，拿不出精神来面对朋友的殷殷问候。这几年我发现，尊重约会的对象就是拿出自己的时间和精神，而不是带一张疲惫的脸和心情赴约。不论自己是多么的忙碌和时间不够用，也不应该觉得挪出五分钟来会见朋友是难得的，因为每一个人都为生活忙着。

有当老师的朋友提到，现在的年轻学子非常不像话，竟然从网上抄功课作业，还原版照抄，让老师抓个正着还不以为然，抱歉两个字变得很空泛，让人不胜唏嘘。我只能安慰说，不要灰心，不巧是那所学院招生条件不严格，来了一部分烂瑀充数的家伙。没想到一说说中了该所学院的问题点。罢了罢了，请别再理会什么华人文化教育这样的大帽子了，责任多么的沉重，好好的拿到博士学位，然后离开到更好的地方工作和生活。昨天在办公室见到胸前伟大的年轻同事，让我差点流鼻血。是我思想和形象落伍了，现在的年轻人真是不一样。

每一个人都往前看，也往钱看。在都会中的人经常觉得茫然有所失，不知道将来何去何从？其实不要想太多，人人自有来处也自有去处，总有一天我们会回到来处，而期间的过程更加的重要。过程就是生活，生活的霎那老想着过去和未来，现在该怎么办呢？老人家不明白，因为他们觉得有的就是过去而没有什么将来，他们错过了过去而不断的懊恼，还是不懂得把握仅有的当下。那年轻人或中年人总要明白吧！我要好好的生活，我打算原谅自己，将父母家人的烦恼抛诸脑后，我要寻找我的快乐。不管哪一天，只要你们愿意，请跟我来。

跳起来，时间到得回家去。

路经青岛~山东省出行记

朋友一听说我到青岛出差，都呼哈个没完没了，又以为我可以借意出差到人称小欧洲的青岛观光。是呀，青岛我是到过了，就在12月16日飞机降落在流亭机场的刹那，仅此而已。

来回两程，都没有在青岛观光或市区停留。16日我和日本过来的同事在闸口外会合，就坐车到潍坊，大概是1个半小时的车程。出公差才来到这里，原以为可以顺道溜达溜达，但是天气太冷了，地面温度只有摄氏6、7度，适应不了，一骨碌钻入车子后就再也不想回到外面，两秒钟也不愿意。一路上挣大我疲惫的眼睛，也没看到什么欧洲风情，只有铺天盖地萧瑟的冬日枯枝和荒凉大地。在车上昏迷了一下，不喜欢暖气，搞得我皮肤过干，呼吸道不顺畅，也不觉得休息到，反而觉得是给闷晕了，怪难受的。

潍坊位于山东半岛中部，地处济南、青岛中间，占居山东半岛城市群中心位置。骤眼看来，潍坊开发的还不错，道路齐整，人流顺畅，据闻治安也比南部的深圳东莞好得多。接待的商务人员都是山东人，不似南方汇聚五湖四海大江南北的各色人流。工作还是一样的紧张，时间不太够用，尤其要让其他人说说唱唱，时间都溜掉了。好吧，难得有人要大发伟论，我是乐听其见，闲着可以发呆挺开心呢。

在潍坊待了两天半，饮食还挺不错的，午晚餐都吃鲁菜，就是山东菜，也是中国四大菜系之一。好奇心一起，就问是哪四大菜系？顺手拈来，广东菜（粤菜）、四川菜、山东菜，然而第四大菜系却没有人说得出来。打电话问了又问，还是没有定案。我回来查了查网站，应该是江苏菜系，简称苏菜。由淮扬菜、苏州菜、南京菜等组成。以前山东菜也是入京的菜系，故以前四大菜系是以鲁菜为首，现今南方人抬头了，四大菜系以粤菜为首，依序为川菜、鲁菜、苏菜。我是三生有幸，在忙忙碌碌的工作日程中，得享道地山东菜。

北方人爱吃面食，少用米饭，健康的玉米大豆小麦皮夹研磨好的当地辣椒酱就是一道美食，新鲜现做的饺子皮薄馅滑，还有人称天上龙肉地上骡肉的驴子肉，每一道菜都让人齿颊留香令人回味。山东菜爱用葱蒜等吊味，每每饱餐后都不大敢开口讲话，因为那浓烈的葱蒜味道历久常留，怕讲话不慎变得口气喷人。我是在南方长大的典型米饭胃，连着几日中间一定要吃口饭才有活着的感觉，就在一次的午餐时间冒昧的要了炒饭，后来发现大家真的不怎么饱的样子，原来来客不识相，搞得大家体会到我之前的感受。

山东人很豪爽，坦白又可爱，跟我很合拍呢。最后一晚的晚餐，席间聊着让我醒起原来自己的祖先还有来自山东半岛的。母亲那一系，外婆是来自山东省的，想来我也遗传了山东人的基因，可惜只是高挑而不迷人。对了，其实冬天的北方还是有绿色的树，我问说：那些圣诞树到底是什么名字？别人一时间还搞不懂我说什么呢。原来那一路上还绿着的叫做杉树和柏树，是一种常绿的树，作为圣诞树，象征生命长存。而那秃了顶的是白杨树，每年的早春月份就开始吐嫩嫩的新芽，据说非常美丽动人。

真希望生意可以顺利成交，那么以后我还有机会到山东省溜达溜达，到时候可以看清楚据说非常美丽的地方~青岛，还有在季节变换后不再是荒漠一片的枯枝和三三两两的鸟巢。

以下由网上截下来，关于白杨树的生活习性。
白杨树是西北最普通的一种树，只要有草的地方，就有白杨树的影子。 白杨树是不太讲究生存条件的，大路边，田埂旁，哪里有黄土的地方，哪里就有她的生存。她不追逐雨水，不贪恋阳光，只要能够在哪怕板结的土地上，给一点水分，白杨树的一截枝条就会生根、抽芽。只要挪动一点杂草生存的空间，她就会把黄土地装点，撑起一片绿色。她不需要人去施肥，也不需要像娇嫩的草坪那样去浇灌，只要不挥刀斧去砍伐，给她一点宽松的环境，让她吸收自由的空气，她就会挺拔向上，她从来不对生长的土地说不。她不枝不蔓，扎根在贫瘠的土壤中，随遇而安，与世无争，因为她属于草根族。 白杨树虽然出身寒微，却是最讲究生存质量的。土壤里还透着冰碴，春风中还夹着寒意，她的枝头已经冒出翠绿的嫩芽，在沉重的压力下，她的每一片嫩芽，每一片叶子都是努力向上的，而绝不弯腰乞求，更没有媚俗的面孔。秋风里，虽然脱尽了叶子，单薄的枝条依然透着精气，枝干向上，高昂着头。严冬里，她迎着刀霜雪剑，依然伫立在寒冷的黄土地，枝枝傲骨，树树无字，树树有声。而此时，贵族的花草，却在暖房里，接受着送到叶面和根部的养料，懒洋洋地打发着没有血色的日子。

我的工作伙伴 Working Partner

I would like to talk about my working partners. It is fun to work in Hong Kong especially work with fun-loving colleagues. Let me introduce them in brief from now on.

DIY Manager

DIY Manager is my direct superior and he is a very hard working manager and dedicated a lot of jobs to all of us. Office maintenance also one of his part time habit. He likes to eat seafood, especially the prawn and crab. In fact, he likes any food that can challenge his taste bugs. Everyone can judge from the size he gained if he is not controlling and doing DIY job in the office. His last performance ~ Do the maintenance in office last Oct.

He did enjoy leisure time in generous way ~ treat his staffs good meals and funs. Overall rating: A kind boss, a workaholic manager, a fun-loving co-worker

"Lovely” Advisor

Don’t be miss-lead by the subject and picture. My Japanese advisor is not in love with any IPO staffs. I forced him to hold the mat and took his picture when we are wandering around the market after meals. He is a very kind and easy going person though sometime he is a little bit weird. After all, Japanese has cultural conflicts with most of the international staffs. He has the lighter symptoms over the years Japanese I have dealing with. Well, I have been his fitness consultant for a while. Eventually I gave up because he keeps eating junk food when I was not able to eyes on him. Winter is coming, though I have resigned or fired from the consultant position, I wish him to keep the same size after the coming cool season.

The other picture is me with Advisor, who is over eating for sometimes. His size is bigger and bigger. The picture shown I am even tiny beside him. From this picture, I decided to quit from the lousy position ~ fitness consultant. What surprised me is he finally managed his weight after his trip to Japan. May be work in Japan is tougher than work in HK. Good luck!

Youth and Fun-loving staffs

You know what Youth referring to? Both of them are very young to me. My manager told me “too young”, I am relieved and feel not so bad situation. I realized that the young generation has coming to me since couple of years ago when I was joined Singapore workforce. Last time is work with young people, now is working with youth. Well, it is very good exercise to me to feel young again. Where is my long lost youth and young time?

The Chip N Dale symbol is everywhere on table, she acts like the same way ~ fun and naughty most of the time. But she never admits that and will never change her style to accommodate the so called masses opinions. Sometimes DIY Manager even listens to her Cantonese style order. Recently she is getting flare up with “Lovely” Advisor who has returned to Japan. Sometimes I got to remind her who is actually our superior, and what positions we were in.

I guessed she likes Hello Kitty from the bottom of her heart though she held a tiger with her in this picture. She is a “Hot” girl as always wear less than other staffs even in the cooler temperature. Alright! Youngster is always with Hot Blood and easier to spice up the office. Will she overheat and burn out some memories?

Overall, they are honest and kind to my bombastic Cantonese. Sometimes I did offer my special thanks to both of their tolerable manner by reading the newspaper in Cantonese, it is very awful and hard to finish job to me. And it created funs among all of us though it is torturing listening course to them.

Business co-worker
He is designer of Communication product. Before married, he was a member of band and played Guitar. After married, he had stopped playing guitar, and not even wanted to take picture with me. Most of the picture he took with me with serious face. He said “I am a married man.” Oh! God, just a picture! Not even think about to be friend or further contact except business talks. Well, at least he is straight and well manner to inform me his status. This is the most funny look he shown so far. Excellent shot by “Lovely” advisor. I posed V, he posed III. I loved this picture and I do not love him at all.

Well, a lot to say but limited time tell in once. Times to times I will update more about their status if they created some news.

给留日同学的信

你好吗？我这里变冷了些，想来日本应该下雪了。前些日子除了生病，还很忙，日子变得很难应付。你在外地，有老公孩子，虽然偶尔思乡也没有我这么的形单只影来的冷落吧？！

你对目前的生活还满意吗？我就马马虎虎的感觉还可以。你过年不回家吗？我在圣诞节回家去，不想一个人在异乡，冷冷清清的看着电视发呆。原本要去台湾，但是没有预先约好，大家都忙。有时想想，我这么努力的工作，然后将钱花掉，不知道老死的时刻会不会一无所有？想到就决定即刻回家看看父母去，他们还在我就要不时地看顾他们。

我最近想振作点，就想到你这么有冲劲的同学，给我一点心得，怎么能在你忙碌的工作和生活里，挤出时间来念书学日文？每天有时刻表吗？你大概没有什么酒肉朋友和我乱写感受的坏习惯吧！

我觉得自己的事业停滞不前，有点害怕一旦失业就无业可就了。于是拿起书本要努力，可是十年过去了，我已经忘记当年自己是如何念书了。每每书页还没翻到要读的那页，瞌睡虫已经爬满我的脸，翻书变成我解决失眠的最佳途径。记忆中我的大学生涯也没念多少书，和你相比我只是个忙着打工的假大学生，虽然不小心拿过奖学金，也是靠满分堂挤出来的。你就不一样了，一个真正有在认真念书考试的同学，毕业后也是那么的认真学习，生完小孩还可以继续留日，虽然搞不清楚你到日本学习什么学科，还是很了不起的。你有空就指导指导我如何学习日语吧，我可以应用到学习其他科目上。

下雪的时候记得拍下雪景，生命中的每一刻过去了就过去了，我们老去的时候只能靠照片来带起回忆，带起一串一串美好的曾经。你大概也不会打麻将，我也是。老了不打麻将，没事干很容易失忆的。唤得起珍贵的回忆，才知道自己曾经有过丰富的人生。嗯，你是用功的人，可能到时连德文法文西班牙文也搞定了，而我还在这里继续我的阿里伽多和撒哟纳拉！

天气冷请多保重，我会努力向你看齐的。